Hunter And The Headlights.

Since my last blog, things have definatley picked up.
I passed ninth grade, my family life's picked up, and I'm just overall happy.


NOW, it's time for a rant.

The topic? Druggies and cheaters.
Now, as you already may know, I used to be a huge drug addict. I smoked up, all the time. Life was more about how I can get a cheap, quick fix, rather than living. Eventually, I said fuck that and quit. I also used to be a cheater, in the relationship realm. I haven't cheated on anyone in three years. Now, why do I bring these up? Because my last girlfriends AND boyfriends were both. I can't stand cheaters, or druggies. It's a huge turn off to me when I'm kising someone,and I can smell weed and vodka on their breath. Or when I makeout with someone, they just got back from giving some guy head. Gross. If my girlfriend/boyfriend is giving anyone head, it'll be me. And that's a rarity. I hate it when I give my all for someone, and they go and give it to someone else. I hate it when my partner is more into their drugs than me. If you're a cheater, don't waste your time trying to get with me. Same goes for druggies. Drugs will fuck up your mind, and cause you to age, physically, of course, way faster. I like my partners to be intelligent. Thanks. I can't think of anything else, yeh. Bye.

So Wrong, It's Hunter.

You left me alone when I needed you most.
I can't believe you.
Ever since you started dating her last year,
you've been falling away from me.
It's like I can't be friends with you anymore, because SHE doesn't approve.
Does your life revolve around her?
Or is it that you're so afraid of losing her that you can't for once be there for me when it's not convenient for her?
either way, I just can't stand you right now.
You were my BEST FRIEND, and quite frankly, Xxxxx, I don't think that was such a good idea.
All I wanted was to have you be there for me during my most troubling breakdown, and were you?
No you weren't.
Just, I'm done wasting my time hoping you'd come back to help me with all my trouble.
NOPE.
I figured you out,
and what I've learned is that you can't function without Xxxx.
so, until further notice, I'm done with you.
Wait, why did I even type this?
It's not like you'd read it, anyway.

Bring Hunter the Horizon.

Paranoia.
One word, and it's sums up my life right about now.
The girl I like has been leading me on, and eventually, crushed me.
My friends are back-stabbing me,
My family life, well, back to the old way.
I might have to leave everything I've worked so hard for behind,
and that will kill me.
This sucks.
Nothing seems to get better,
in fact,
they get worse.
I can't stand this.
I just want to feel normal.
Like, without the whole world crapping on my head.
I've had at least five breakdowns in the last WEEK alone, and my best friend Xxxxx, hasn;t been here for me latley. It's taken all I can do not to end it all, just to give up.
I will NOT let this get the best of me,
and I will NOT end it like this.
EVER.
I'm better than that, than her, then them.
I'm not going to throw it all away.
I'm going to live through it.
The strongest of travelers brave the most violent of storms.
This is jus the Storm before the Calm.
I WILL GET THROUGH THIS.
The Sun will set, things will get better, and the weary traveler will finally be at rest.

Drop Dead, Hunter.

Finally, exams are over.
I can relax.
Well, not relly:/
my mom and I have to move back in with my grandparents [whom I hate with all of me.]
Unfortunatley, we have to give up the cats.
I've been trying to find them homes, with people I trust.
Right when things look up, this kind of shit happens, and it's right back down the tubes.
I just want to be happy,
normal,
like a regular fifteen-year-old kid.
So much for that, right?
ERGH.
I can't stand this.
I just don't want to deal with this shit anymore.
I can't take it.
I just can't.
God.
Things like this make me question my belief in God, you know?
It's just not worth giving up though.
I WILL make something of myself.
I WILL not be broken.
and above all, I WILL not let them hurt me.
I'm done, with all of this.